Stay Real

Ever had THAT one dream that made you feeling so happy and fuzzy that you woke up with a sheepish smile - then you would roll over and pretend to fall asleep again, secretly wishing for a part two/ continuation of the dream?

After 3 excruciating years did the feeling surface itself again. And though it's gnawing away my senses, it's not so bad after all. Scritchy, scratchy ... something furry pawing away, the feeling itself is bittersweet.

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Cupid's Arrow: Past, Now, Future

Says Alicia to me,

I have never heard of a person who is love-struck but unhappy.
You are the first.

*looks down, twiddling thumbs*

Insecurity issues of the past? Indeed. Without letting go of the past, there's no looking forward to the future.
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And I could use a little distraction. Or so I thought.

A road trip to commemorate and relive the past. A conclusion to be drawn.

The upside, insecurity issues are in the past - that's to be sure. A new face replaced the old, ill-feelings are no longer harbored. There's so much to look forward to! Uncharted waters, yes; but endless opportunities too.

The downside, not much progress with new face. Que sera sera? I wonder.

注意：寻人启示

需要的是一双温暖的大手
可以牵我一起走

需要的是一个可靠的胸膛
跟我分享小坚强

需要的是一个安全的臂弯
躲风雨的避风港

需要的是一个灿烂的微笑
年轻的冲劲不会变老

需要的是一个长久的诗歌
我们一起填词作曲

最不需要的是
一个三分钟热度的爱情

青丝 . 情丝

把一头波浪般的青丝给剪了
发现自己原来真的
很伤

把一年多以来的情丝给斩了
发现自己原来真的
难忘

那边的他，
会伤心吗?
还是比我潇洒?

伪装的潇洒 & 愈合的伤疤

手上那浅浅褐色的疤痕，无时无刻提醒自己种下的愚蠢。
抉择在心灵上的折磨与身体上的疼痛，我好不犹豫选择了后者。
如今就算外伤复合了，疼痛不再了；那淡淡的痕迹却变得更明显。

我常问自己：真的那么潇洒么？
脸上的笑容是发自内心的，还是一味的逞强？

有位友人对我说，“你根本没资格说空虚， 开口的是你。”

但是，我是真正的爱过的；如今就算感情散了，空虚感是必然的吧？
尤其在手脚冰冷时，想起你总会温暖我双手双脚；
尤其在看见婚纱时，想起你说要我做美美的新娘；
尤其在看见冰淇凌，想起你爱吃的巧克力口味；
还有好多好多那些曾经的画面.......

面对着众人的爱戴与拥护，
我的笑容是灿烂的，大方的，倔强的...
面对着最真实的自己时，
才发现嘴角边抽蓄的很难看...

或许是第一次恋情的缘故，我不会控制的投入了很多的爱；
爱得越浓，伤得越疼；我领会了，但我不后悔我曾经爱过。

回首看一看...
如今那些爱已成往事了，我依然惦念那让我安宁的味道。

我好希望能够尽快走出这伤悲，
彻底的摆脱笼罩自己的伤痛，
打从心底的开怀大笑！

Fighting!

Past tense.

Announced my official break-up just recently and yes, 
I was badgered by many questions and curiosity. 
The most frequent asked question was:
"Why? What happened?" 
Honestly, I don't really know how to answer this question which was posted by so many concerned friends.
There're too many complications in the relationship,
and to be frank, we can't pretty much expect everything to be a bed of roses.
I am thankful and happy that it wasn't a bad relationship.
I had good times and great memories.
I believe we do.
However, it is the time to let go now.
I do so after given much thought, after much perseverance and tolerance.
I do so after much love.
I am indeed thankful and happy that I have great and loving friends around me;
thank you folks, for your concerns and support!
I am indeed blessed and glad that I have a family whom are supportive and understanding.
I am living my best and;
I am on the right track to restore my former confidence and bubbly-ness.
Once, again - a big round of sincere appreciation for those who stand-by me always.


我, 依然敢爱敢恨 :'P