Bah.

And so I considered myself breezing through the heavy selection rounds;
but at the end of the day, 
Jaded -- is the word.
So much for promises and sweet talks;
Should the initial offer stays, then a reconsideration is in order.


For the rest, however;
I hoped for the best,
and I hoped my efforts paid-off :']

Wise conversation

A Lemon told me that, indeed, recent events has stirred changes in me. 

Unfortunately, its a negative one.. 

Like most of my friends, he thought that - somehow, the old bubbly-cheerful-vibrant V-vian is lost. My sunny demeanour dimmed, I became more emotional and most importantly, all my writings/ scriptings/ jottings reflected sadness and misery. All along, I used to be the heart and soul of gatherings; spurring laughters, telling jokes, entertaining others with my sarcastic-ism (occasionally, poking "harmless" fun at poor souls who somehow unwisely crossed my path~ bahhahaha XD)... Where has "V-vian" gone to? I don't show-up at gatherings, nor do I mix and mingle like I used to. Because of a romance that is going down the hill, I have been a miserable kid that isolates herself from the laughter and happiness. What has become of me?

Thank goodness that I managed to regain myself from "the fall". It is true that, after acceptance - then comes the healing and recovery. (Sounds familiar eh? Yep, if I remembered correctly, Prof. Dumbledore said similar lines in the HP series.) I wouldn't have said that at the present, I am fully recovered - cos, I know I am not. At least, with acceptance - my wounds are healing, and I felt rejuvenated! Again, I am indeed grateful to friends and peers that shown me much love that speeds up my recovery process. 

Am proud to announce that : I am on the right track to regain the former me. Bubbly, cheerful, full with vigour.

p/s: Thanks Lemon. I enjoyed immensely the wise conversation that we had, for it kindled lost vigour and re-affirm lost faith and courage!

实现小愿望

终于到一直以来想去的公园逛了一圈
心情是如此的高昂

清晨的阳光是舒服的
晒得我暖洋洋 有种感觉叫幸福
凉凉吹来的微风 有种感觉叫舒畅

我过得很好
没有你 我也不孤单
















记得
以前你曾答应陪我一起走
如今
只剩我自己也没关系
前方的路很长很长
没有你，
我也可以走很远很远

 看见早晨以及未来的那道曙光
仿佛提醒着自己
接下来即将展开的舞台
我的表演将是闪亮的、华丽的

谢谢陪我逛逛，陪我当秋千的他；

实现了这个小愿望

我真的很开心 :'D

注意：寻人启示

需要的是一双温暖的大手
可以牵我一起走

需要的是一个可靠的胸膛
跟我分享小坚强

需要的是一个安全的臂弯
躲风雨的避风港

需要的是一个灿烂的微笑
年轻的冲劲不会变老

需要的是一个长久的诗歌
我们一起填词作曲

最不需要的是
一个三分钟热度的爱情

喘

寂静的夜里
拖着一身疲惫
徘徊崩溃边缘
哭了

四面八方的压力
你们懂多少？
需要的是一点
温馨的安慰
热情的鼓励
而不是更多的
指责·压力·矛盾

一直活在你们的期望中
你们的期望越高
就必须逼迫自己
满足你们的期待
回应你们所想要的

我的艰辛与坚持
需要代价的
前方的未知
存有着猜测与恐慌

以后的路
我会为自己负责
既然你们不能给与我
那么一点的鼓励而不是变相施压
那，
我也不想奢望些什么

只有自己，是最可靠的