Keep on Guessing

Too much guess work of late, figures that I am typically those type of people who should be kept pre-occupied at all times; if not, you can hear the brain whirring -- those wires might got em'self tangle-up sometime pretty soon, I reckon'. 
Does second chances came by often? 
No, they don't; yet, why the appreciation rate is still so low? Or was it due to slow reflexes? It took me long enough (not to mention much thoughts and efforts) to actually make the initial approach, and why aren't you making any moves? Stop contemplating by yourself and got drown by your own thoughts; talk to me and perhaps we can tackle this together. At times, you gotta have faith in wisdom of the crowds. As they say, two minds are better than one.

Buff-up your sexual skills to reduce household violence, says OWC

Sexual lessons to tame your hubby, keep em' happy and don't visit prostitutes; anyone?

This is the solution to domestic violence, as suggested by the Obedient Wives Club.

[For more info, click here and here.]

Back then, when I'm still doing my secondary education; we've been asked to write Fakta (factual) essays, in which one of the most common topic is -- domestic violence. In the long list of facts we put into our karangans as to what causes household violence, the general ideas would include irresponsible parenting, unemployment, work stress, financial burden, business failure, loose familial bonding ...etc; somehow, I don't recall "unsatisfactory sex" is in the list.

According to OWC, domestic violence could have been avoided if the wives listen to their husbands and provide them with satisfying sex; thus, the men would not have to seek out prostitutes... as suggested by the club's spokesperson, "Wives should welcome them(their husbands) with sexy clothes and alluring smiles when in the privacy of their homes."

And so, domestic violence and social vices can be curbed with sexy lingeries, alluring smiles and good bedroom techniques? I have never thought that such long-standing social problems can be curbed so easily, somewhat with few extra sex lessons then drunk-and-unemployed husbands will not beat the shit out of their children - just get the wife to shed  few pieces of clothing, seduce the husband and work em' out of it eh? 

Wives should listen to their husbands, aside from supplying them with satisfactory sex. What if the husband suggests that swapping sexual partners with his friend or relatives for better sexual experience? And he promised that if you listen to him, he would not abuse the kids or to indulge in prostitution. Any suggestions or advice?

Domestic violence and other social ills are caused by a wide range of causes; high unemployment rate perhaps? Psychological and health problems maybe? Bad vices such as alcohol addiction and getting drunk all the time, miserable childhood experience and trauma and many more... to think that with sexual lessons and counselling sessions to get wives to pleasure and satisfy their husbands would be able to solve the problem is a very simple and outrageously stupid thought indeed.

Women, in any case - should be independent and learn how to protect themselves and their kids from domestic violence. Women can be obedient to their husbands, be the good mother and the good cook, at the same time, women should also know the importance of being wise and having wisdom - but not a puppet. Talking bout women rights and protection of the female community, ha!

------------- FREE TALK------------------


Indeed, it has spiralled into some kind of international joke. Check below for list of foreign media featuring the news:-

• Huffington Post
• Washington Post
• Times of India
• France 24
• Yahoo! News S'pore
• The China Post
• The Seattle Times
• Temasek Review
• Miami Herald
• Las Vegas Sun
• New Zealand Herald
• The Independent, UK
• Sign On San Diego

...etc. Purr-lease, stop blaming the women for unsatisfactory sex or not having tip-top bedroom skills that directly causes social ills and domestic violence. Get your facts right people! 

Bah.

And so I considered myself breezing through the heavy selection rounds;
but at the end of the day, 
Jaded -- is the word.
So much for promises and sweet talks;
Should the initial offer stays, then a reconsideration is in order.


For the rest, however;
I hoped for the best,
and I hoped my efforts paid-off :']

Wise conversation

A Lemon told me that, indeed, recent events has stirred changes in me. 

Unfortunately, its a negative one.. 

Like most of my friends, he thought that - somehow, the old bubbly-cheerful-vibrant V-vian is lost. My sunny demeanour dimmed, I became more emotional and most importantly, all my writings/ scriptings/ jottings reflected sadness and misery. All along, I used to be the heart and soul of gatherings; spurring laughters, telling jokes, entertaining others with my sarcastic-ism (occasionally, poking "harmless" fun at poor souls who somehow unwisely crossed my path~ bahhahaha XD)... Where has "V-vian" gone to? I don't show-up at gatherings, nor do I mix and mingle like I used to. Because of a romance that is going down the hill, I have been a miserable kid that isolates herself from the laughter and happiness. What has become of me?

Thank goodness that I managed to regain myself from "the fall". It is true that, after acceptance - then comes the healing and recovery. (Sounds familiar eh? Yep, if I remembered correctly, Prof. Dumbledore said similar lines in the HP series.) I wouldn't have said that at the present, I am fully recovered - cos, I know I am not. At least, with acceptance - my wounds are healing, and I felt rejuvenated! Again, I am indeed grateful to friends and peers that shown me much love that speeds up my recovery process. 

Am proud to announce that : I am on the right track to regain the former me. Bubbly, cheerful, full with vigour.

p/s: Thanks Lemon. I enjoyed immensely the wise conversation that we had, for it kindled lost vigour and re-affirm lost faith and courage!

实现小愿望

终于到一直以来想去的公园逛了一圈
心情是如此的高昂

清晨的阳光是舒服的
晒得我暖洋洋 有种感觉叫幸福
凉凉吹来的微风 有种感觉叫舒畅

我过得很好
没有你 我也不孤单
















记得
以前你曾答应陪我一起走
如今
只剩我自己也没关系
前方的路很长很长
没有你，
我也可以走很远很远

 看见早晨以及未来的那道曙光
仿佛提醒着自己
接下来即将展开的舞台
我的表演将是闪亮的、华丽的

谢谢陪我逛逛，陪我当秋千的他；

实现了这个小愿望

我真的很开心 :'D

注意：寻人启示

需要的是一双温暖的大手
可以牵我一起走

需要的是一个可靠的胸膛
跟我分享小坚强

需要的是一个安全的臂弯
躲风雨的避风港

需要的是一个灿烂的微笑
年轻的冲劲不会变老

需要的是一个长久的诗歌
我们一起填词作曲

最不需要的是
一个三分钟热度的爱情

喘

寂静的夜里
拖着一身疲惫
徘徊崩溃边缘
哭了

四面八方的压力
你们懂多少？
需要的是一点
温馨的安慰
热情的鼓励
而不是更多的
指责·压力·矛盾

一直活在你们的期望中
你们的期望越高
就必须逼迫自己
满足你们的期待
回应你们所想要的

我的艰辛与坚持
需要代价的
前方的未知
存有着猜测与恐慌

以后的路
我会为自己负责
既然你们不能给与我
那么一点的鼓励而不是变相施压
那，
我也不想奢望些什么

只有自己，是最可靠的

Watch-out for that Bottom Line

Is getting totally stressed up (and freaked out too!) by a friend as time goes by. 

Do watch out for words that come out from your mouth, please poke some common sense into the words that you utter. Don't be so immature and childish, we're adults and university-educated. Why provoke wars that break bonds and ties here and there? 

Was it just for attention-seeking purpose? 

Or was it your idea of having fun or a way of establishing personal loyalty? 

When 100 people ran away from you; it is time to take into consideration that the problem does not lies within the 100 person, but yourself. There is an obvious urgency to rectify your mistakes or to change your attitude. I have tried my best to fill-in my duties as a good friend, so please watch out for that bottom line of mine and do not push me overboard. Think twice (or thrice) before you utter any more stupid and pointless words that eventually drives everyone away. Put a halt to those lies and stop your yarn-spinning, its really driving everyone mad. 

Please, grow up and get a life.

We (your friends) are not nannies, it is not our task nor responsibility to look after you like kids running wild during playtime. We are not getting paid or rewarded for dousing out fires that you ignited here, there everywhere. Please take charge of yourself and stop freaking us out.

Kouhai - Senpai? Respect larh a bit!

Two recent ordeals have really kindled my anger towards few juniors from the same faculty. 

First, came a bunch of PR juniors whom barged into the class during Q&A session; though they were extremely late, they did not apologize or acknowledge the tutor in any way. They just fidgeted at the door and couldn't care less whether they had just interrupted the group whom was presenting up front at that time. After all these impoliteness, one particular student from the group got the whole class angry during his group's Q&A session. Questions were asked from the floor due to confusing work presented but was answered in a very defensive and ask-me-lah-I-will-fight-you manner. What's up with the raised voice and clenched fist dude? And the story doesn't end there, that particular rude student went home and decided to openly declare his unhappiness in his Facebook profile, by announcing that "...don't think you are all senior then can bully us! We are not a fool! N take note you are are not that smart... is just a faker! o0o!! " Another interesting quote from his Facebook status upload would be something like this "...Although you all are senior but act like a noob! We all are junior but not means we dunoo anything! o0o!!" 

I only have one question for you dude, who acted like a noob now? 

The following week, in came a group of AV students interrupting MY group's presentation; and for worst, I'm presenting up front at that time. ( indeed, I am a superior and bossy lady who appreciates respect from others .) The door was thrown open suddenly and a group of wild-eyed students came in, walked-past the presenting group, the rest of the class and headed towards the tutor whom they all clamoured around with, deep in their own discussion. And the tutor allowed them to do so, putting us on hold with a wave of his hand; and so the presenting group was left standing in front of the rest of the class like fools  ogling at the crowd around the tutor. "Excuse me, but I am still presenting here." Oops, that's me. Only after that, the tutor shoo-ed the juniors aside and let us continue our presentation and Q&A session. "Are you guys PR juniors?" "Err..no, we're from AV..." "OK, next time do have some courtesy." Me, again. 

It certainly has became one of the hottest discussion topics among us concerning juniors' impoliteness and their rude manners. Whether we're your seniors or not, it is crucial to learn and have proper manners wherever you go or in whatever you do. Lastly, a message to our cute FAS juniors; if you guys are interested in continuing your careers in the communications industry, do learn some basic courtesy and manners. Else, its just plain embarrassing.

青丝 . 情丝

把一头波浪般的青丝给剪了
发现自己原来真的
很伤

把一年多以来的情丝给斩了
发现自己原来真的
难忘

那边的他，
会伤心吗?
还是比我潇洒?

伪装的潇洒 & 愈合的伤疤

手上那浅浅褐色的疤痕，无时无刻提醒自己种下的愚蠢。
抉择在心灵上的折磨与身体上的疼痛，我好不犹豫选择了后者。
如今就算外伤复合了，疼痛不再了；那淡淡的痕迹却变得更明显。

我常问自己：真的那么潇洒么？
脸上的笑容是发自内心的，还是一味的逞强？

有位友人对我说，“你根本没资格说空虚， 开口的是你。”

但是，我是真正的爱过的；如今就算感情散了，空虚感是必然的吧？
尤其在手脚冰冷时，想起你总会温暖我双手双脚；
尤其在看见婚纱时，想起你说要我做美美的新娘；
尤其在看见冰淇凌，想起你爱吃的巧克力口味；
还有好多好多那些曾经的画面.......

面对着众人的爱戴与拥护，
我的笑容是灿烂的，大方的，倔强的...
面对着最真实的自己时，
才发现嘴角边抽蓄的很难看...

或许是第一次恋情的缘故，我不会控制的投入了很多的爱；
爱得越浓，伤得越疼；我领会了，但我不后悔我曾经爱过。

回首看一看...
如今那些爱已成往事了，我依然惦念那让我安宁的味道。

我好希望能够尽快走出这伤悲，
彻底的摆脱笼罩自己的伤痛，
打从心底的开怀大笑！

Fighting!

Mad... but True.

The picture has been getting more defined as time goes by, but choosing to ignore it was thought to be the best solution. If I don't react or if I stay down low, the whispers behind will just be forgotten soon enough? How I hoped so but...there is always a BUT (a butt too.) 

Mentality is something that is very difficult to gauge. People just do not bother to look at the bigger picture before they make judgements, its really funny and madly saddening at times. To think that we are no longer in the days of doing primary school and we should be able to make wise and balanced decisions especially in matters concerning friendship. Whether to divulge or to share a personal story with you or not, its... well, personal ... ain't it? The fact that I am not that prone to sharing certain matters with you might due to reasons such as timing? environment? mood? understanding? personal traits and level of acceptance? And so, I have decided not to tell you but another acquaintance. Are you going to be pissed? Or jealousy is the word? 

In-groups and out-groups are extremely common in any culture. Why get yourselves so damn fucked-up because of these trivial matters? You might be the in-group here but an outsider there, vice versa. Or even, neither here not there. So, what's there to complain and getting all stony-faced? I have not whined back then, and I will not do so either now. Fine by me should you got pissed or screwed-up... I'll just take a step backwards then. 

Had enough of all these. When the time comes where I couldn't and needn't to take it any more, I will certainly tell you : F*CK YOU. Go and live in your own world of jealousy and self-pity. What do I care? Duh~

Past tense.

Announced my official break-up just recently and yes, 
I was badgered by many questions and curiosity. 
The most frequent asked question was:
"Why? What happened?" 
Honestly, I don't really know how to answer this question which was posted by so many concerned friends.
There're too many complications in the relationship,
and to be frank, we can't pretty much expect everything to be a bed of roses.
I am thankful and happy that it wasn't a bad relationship.
I had good times and great memories.
I believe we do.
However, it is the time to let go now.
I do so after given much thought, after much perseverance and tolerance.
I do so after much love.
I am indeed thankful and happy that I have great and loving friends around me;
thank you folks, for your concerns and support!
I am indeed blessed and glad that I have a family whom are supportive and understanding.
I am living my best and;
I am on the right track to restore my former confidence and bubbly-ness.
Once, again - a big round of sincere appreciation for those who stand-by me always.


我, 依然敢爱敢恨 :'P

Thanks for Listening

Enjoyed a karaoke session with Chet, Piggy and Joey; it was definitely an awesome trip that relieved some of my pent-up stress, frustration and boredom. No, I did not enjoy watching Black Swan (p/s: Piggy, you shall not make movie suggestions next time ='P). I do not know its a compliment or not that those who went karaoke with me before commended that I'm good with oldies.. haha! 

Anyways, one of the songs that I sang tonight is 不能跟情人说的话 (Words that Cannot be Said to your Lover.) It is a great song which I meant to dedicate to my friends, especially those close few who has stood by me when I had my relationship crisis and crashes; and that you guys shown me much love and support by lending your ears and shoulders to me. Thanks for listening to so many words that (I) cannot be said to my lover, thanks for taking in my madness and silliness, thanks for tolerating with my rantings and laments, thanks for spending time and wiping my tears away. I am indeed blessed to have great friends that shown me great love and support. Thanks for Listening to Me.

Coffee Psychology

 How I crave for Starbucks and Black Canyon tis' moment; but Nescafe is my companion...

Been downing endless mugs of coffee this few days. Bloodshot eyes and obvious eye bags... its the assignment peak period again and this time, thesis completion date is also just around the corner. Many encouraged me to give it a "final push" - well, since I'm going to graduate soon. Another two more months to the end of my final trimester of my days as an undergraduate. Frankly, caffeine doesn't work on me anymore. I guess the reasons I am still craning for coffee is that somehow, I have the idea that the strong aroma would keep me awake and aware. Coffee psychology, eh? Sometimes, I might even make a cup of coffee just for its aroma. After one or two sip, the mug stays there until the aroma fades. 

Then, its time for another mug, another sip and another aroma-filled moment.

草莓时刻

 

Strawberry Moments 翻译后既是“草莓时刻”，通常让人联想到甜蜜·粉红·窝心·柔软·开怀·可爱等等。坐落于怡保de Garden 种种店铺中，这间Strawberry Moments是相当吸引的存在。

白色红色为主的店内设计以许多红滋滋的草莓图案为摆设。白色的沙发配上白色的木桌子显得干净大方，白色的玻璃门有种欧洲小洋房的味道。

看了看菜单，朋友都说我的眼睛变得闪闪发亮；好想随意的把菜单上五彩兵分的草莓甜点全都点了然后铺在桌上再慢慢品尝啊！虽然样样甜点的价格都略昂贵，但其分量，味道与卖相还真的让我觉得是值得的。

绵绵的香草雪糕入口即化，还有酸酸一点甜的草莓，再配上淡淡芒果香的布丁；真是人间享受！有种恋爱的味道 =3

其实我打从心底希望为了其恋情烦恼的一位朋友，能够像草莓时刻一样开怀与甜蜜。看着他的失落与焦虑，身为朋友却无法帮忙；毕竟这是他的恋爱荆棘，我们始终都只能扮演旁观者的角色。但愿不久后的将来，他能带着心爱的人来光顾这家Strawberry Moments，慢慢的一起感受那甜美的爱恋之味。

of Bentos and Sushi

The showing of TVB's drama "鱼跃在花见" (Eng sub: The Rippling Blossom) has definitely sparked our appetites for Japanese cuisine: Bento boxes, platters of sushi, cups of O'chas, wasabi dollops and fragrant sweet sauces. We have thus visited two Japanese cuisine restaurants in Ipoh within a fortnight: Oh Sushi located in De Garden and also, Sushi East which is just behind Ipoh's Kinta City.

First stop... Oh Sushi

The ambient is comfortable and cozy, not to mention with an extravagant flair. High-backed wooden chairs with cushions in deep-purple satin casing, one word: Nice! 

Of course, the food are more pricey compared to those in Sushi King, but the Bento boxes featured in the menu definitely attracted our eyeballs. The hot O'chas are served in HUGE porcelain mugs which just warmed-up our hands nicely; the cold ones are served in transparent tall glasses with its little ice cubes reflecting the ceiling light. 

From its vinegar rice to chawanmushi, to its assortment of tempura and miso soup; I really enjoyed the food at Oh Sushi! 

Definitely recommended and will go back for more!

Teppanyaki chicken cubes with assorted tempura; Age tofu, rice, miso soup, salad and chawanmushi.

Chicken Katsu Don in mini wok with a mini stove; complete with miso soup, rice, salad, and chawanmushi.

Marinated Unagi with assorted tempura; garlic fried rice, miso soup, salad, fresh iced salmon cubes, and chawanmushi.

2nd Stop... Sushi East

Comparing to the previous restaurant, Sushi East has a more common and cozy feel (suitable for families to dine) rather than the extravagant and chic ambient at Oh Sushi. It was full-house when we arrived and we had to wait by the doors acting as attendants for other customers before we are properly seated. 

Its rather obvious that the throng of customers got the waiters and waitresses very worked-up; they looked rather out-of-breath and clumsy while attending to us. 

Upon seeing their O'cha mugs, my friend says, "Oh, so small! One or two gulps then I've to call for refill!" Well, certainly its incomparable to those at Sushi King and Oh Sushi. 

From the menus, it seems that the shop offers a variety of selections: udons, sushi platters, sobas, Bentos, appetizers. 

Frankly speaking, I don't really fancy the food and so are my friends. We ordered quite alot, soft shell crabs, seafood udon, salmon don, two different Bento boxes, sushi combo platter, assorted tempura and tofu miso soup... The only passable item is the tempura, its ebi (prawn) are real fresh; the rest.. uh, well.

Seafood udon, great outlook but it taste just as ordinary.

Sushi combo platter; the maki is full of veges, the Unagi slice definitely tasted awful and the vinegar rice are very hard (it won't even break after my friend threw it around).

Unagi Bento with watery chamwanmushi and fruit salad with longan (?)

[Clockwise] Soft shell crab, assorted tempura, sweet sauce and sushi platter.

Recommendations:

Sushi King has my favourite Nitsume (sweet sauce) and good Agedashi Tofus.

Oh Sushi's Bento boxes really worth the price and the ambient is just lovely! (not to mention great looking waiters and their warm welcomes!)

Sushi East... erm, its ebi tempura?

Sakae Sushi serves really tasty sobas and maki.

p/s: It would be great if you guys can recommend me good Japanese food :'P

Reasons to Hold On

A huge box of Hello Panda choc-filled biscuits and few Ferrero Rochers are two of the simplest reasons for me to keep holding on. 

"Medium is the Message" says Marshall McLuhan; and I've gotten his message. Much has happened recently, though there are still many unsolved issues, we promised to hold onto each other and walk our path together. Tolerance... one of the most important element in any relationships.

Aside from finding new meanings to my own, a friend of mine touched me with his love story. For all relationships are easy to kick-start but difficult to maintain and sustain. No matter what happens, I hope that his efforts are not in vain and may that he achieve happiness too.

Rewind & Playback

Almost 4 years as an undergraduate has granted me much memories;

Good ones and bad ones alike.

Recently, memories of the social events and activities that I have participated or organized somehow reminded me of my past vigor, enthusiasm and momentum. Those are the days filled with curiosity and the courage to adapt and adopt; to widen the ring of social networks and make new friends (foes too, perhaps. ha-ha.) Endless yumcha sessions and social dinners, pit-stops to wave and chat with acquaintances everywhere I go; definitely not at all low profile. 

Then again, one has to slow down to a trot or a stroll sometimes, after a long run. Self reflection is an essential process that will determine how far can we go in the future. Regrettably, many often neglect this important stage. Nevertheless, I hope that in days to come, things will work out just fine. Barriers and obstacles will be overcame to ensure that I can achieve my goals and that my graduation awaits!

Playback...

Career Trip to Cameron Highlands with Career Development Club

Home Coming Celebrations, UTAR's first Alumni Dinner

Semai tribe Orang Asli Visit to Ulu G'roh

College and University Student Assembly (CUSA) 

PR Campaign: YOUTH CAMPAIGN

UTAR Ball Night @t Sunway Resorts 

Campus Tour [RCM]

Registration, Campus Tour & Mass Call May 2010

  

Playback. Ends.

Ah...memories :')

Beginning

Deleted the previous blog (just few minutes ago) which I had since April 2008.

Along with years of writing; but definitely not the memories. 

New head starts are good.

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