Bah.

And so I considered myself breezing through the heavy selection rounds;
but at the end of the day, 
Jaded -- is the word.
So much for promises and sweet talks;
Should the initial offer stays, then a reconsideration is in order.


For the rest, however;
I hoped for the best,
and I hoped my efforts paid-off :']

Wise conversation

A Lemon told me that, indeed, recent events has stirred changes in me. 

Unfortunately, its a negative one.. 

Like most of my friends, he thought that - somehow, the old bubbly-cheerful-vibrant V-vian is lost. My sunny demeanour dimmed, I became more emotional and most importantly, all my writings/ scriptings/ jottings reflected sadness and misery. All along, I used to be the heart and soul of gatherings; spurring laughters, telling jokes, entertaining others with my sarcastic-ism (occasionally, poking "harmless" fun at poor souls who somehow unwisely crossed my path~ bahhahaha XD)... Where has "V-vian" gone to? I don't show-up at gatherings, nor do I mix and mingle like I used to. Because of a romance that is going down the hill, I have been a miserable kid that isolates herself from the laughter and happiness. What has become of me?

Thank goodness that I managed to regain myself from "the fall". It is true that, after acceptance - then comes the healing and recovery. (Sounds familiar eh? Yep, if I remembered correctly, Prof. Dumbledore said similar lines in the HP series.) I wouldn't have said that at the present, I am fully recovered - cos, I know I am not. At least, with acceptance - my wounds are healing, and I felt rejuvenated! Again, I am indeed grateful to friends and peers that shown me much love that speeds up my recovery process. 

Am proud to announce that : I am on the right track to regain the former me. Bubbly, cheerful, full with vigour.

p/s: Thanks Lemon. I enjoyed immensely the wise conversation that we had, for it kindled lost vigour and re-affirm lost faith and courage!

实现小愿望

终于到一直以来想去的公园逛了一圈
心情是如此的高昂

清晨的阳光是舒服的
晒得我暖洋洋 有种感觉叫幸福
凉凉吹来的微风 有种感觉叫舒畅

我过得很好
没有你 我也不孤单
















记得
以前你曾答应陪我一起走
如今
只剩我自己也没关系
前方的路很长很长
没有你，
我也可以走很远很远

 看见早晨以及未来的那道曙光
仿佛提醒着自己
接下来即将展开的舞台
我的表演将是闪亮的、华丽的

谢谢陪我逛逛，陪我当秋千的他；

实现了这个小愿望

我真的很开心 :'D

注意：寻人启示

需要的是一双温暖的大手
可以牵我一起走

需要的是一个可靠的胸膛
跟我分享小坚强

需要的是一个安全的臂弯
躲风雨的避风港

需要的是一个灿烂的微笑
年轻的冲劲不会变老

需要的是一个长久的诗歌
我们一起填词作曲

最不需要的是
一个三分钟热度的爱情

喘

寂静的夜里
拖着一身疲惫
徘徊崩溃边缘
哭了

四面八方的压力
你们懂多少？
需要的是一点
温馨的安慰
热情的鼓励
而不是更多的
指责·压力·矛盾

一直活在你们的期望中
你们的期望越高
就必须逼迫自己
满足你们的期待
回应你们所想要的

我的艰辛与坚持
需要代价的
前方的未知
存有着猜测与恐慌

以后的路
我会为自己负责
既然你们不能给与我
那么一点的鼓励而不是变相施压
那，
我也不想奢望些什么

只有自己，是最可靠的

Watch-out for that Bottom Line

Is getting totally stressed up (and freaked out too!) by a friend as time goes by. 

Do watch out for words that come out from your mouth, please poke some common sense into the words that you utter. Don't be so immature and childish, we're adults and university-educated. Why provoke wars that break bonds and ties here and there? 

Was it just for attention-seeking purpose? 

Or was it your idea of having fun or a way of establishing personal loyalty? 

When 100 people ran away from you; it is time to take into consideration that the problem does not lies within the 100 person, but yourself. There is an obvious urgency to rectify your mistakes or to change your attitude. I have tried my best to fill-in my duties as a good friend, so please watch out for that bottom line of mine and do not push me overboard. Think twice (or thrice) before you utter any more stupid and pointless words that eventually drives everyone away. Put a halt to those lies and stop your yarn-spinning, its really driving everyone mad. 

Please, grow up and get a life.

We (your friends) are not nannies, it is not our task nor responsibility to look after you like kids running wild during playtime. We are not getting paid or rewarded for dousing out fires that you ignited here, there everywhere. Please take charge of yourself and stop freaking us out.

Kouhai - Senpai? Respect larh a bit!

Two recent ordeals have really kindled my anger towards few juniors from the same faculty. 

First, came a bunch of PR juniors whom barged into the class during Q&A session; though they were extremely late, they did not apologize or acknowledge the tutor in any way. They just fidgeted at the door and couldn't care less whether they had just interrupted the group whom was presenting up front at that time. After all these impoliteness, one particular student from the group got the whole class angry during his group's Q&A session. Questions were asked from the floor due to confusing work presented but was answered in a very defensive and ask-me-lah-I-will-fight-you manner. What's up with the raised voice and clenched fist dude? And the story doesn't end there, that particular rude student went home and decided to openly declare his unhappiness in his Facebook profile, by announcing that "...don't think you are all senior then can bully us! We are not a fool! N take note you are are not that smart... is just a faker! o0o!! " Another interesting quote from his Facebook status upload would be something like this "...Although you all are senior but act like a noob! We all are junior but not means we dunoo anything! o0o!!" 

I only have one question for you dude, who acted like a noob now? 

The following week, in came a group of AV students interrupting MY group's presentation; and for worst, I'm presenting up front at that time. ( indeed, I am a superior and bossy lady who appreciates respect from others .) The door was thrown open suddenly and a group of wild-eyed students came in, walked-past the presenting group, the rest of the class and headed towards the tutor whom they all clamoured around with, deep in their own discussion. And the tutor allowed them to do so, putting us on hold with a wave of his hand; and so the presenting group was left standing in front of the rest of the class like fools  ogling at the crowd around the tutor. "Excuse me, but I am still presenting here." Oops, that's me. Only after that, the tutor shoo-ed the juniors aside and let us continue our presentation and Q&A session. "Are you guys PR juniors?" "Err..no, we're from AV..." "OK, next time do have some courtesy." Me, again. 

It certainly has became one of the hottest discussion topics among us concerning juniors' impoliteness and their rude manners. Whether we're your seniors or not, it is crucial to learn and have proper manners wherever you go or in whatever you do. Lastly, a message to our cute FAS juniors; if you guys are interested in continuing your careers in the communications industry, do learn some basic courtesy and manners. Else, its just plain embarrassing.

青丝 . 情丝

把一头波浪般的青丝给剪了
发现自己原来真的
很伤

把一年多以来的情丝给斩了
发现自己原来真的
难忘

那边的他，
会伤心吗?
还是比我潇洒?